Chewy!!

Well..for the past few days..or atleast since monday i had a hard tym breathing, and my head started to get light.. So light, you’d think it wasnt there..nyway..So i was doing my thing every frikin day..I’ve noticed its bn a while since i last wrote, and to let you catch up on everything, its all just the same old same old..skul is still shit, and umm nothing new happens with in the week..Thats about it. But sumthing pisses me off everysingle day..and it starts in the morning.. this motherfrikin driver just cant keep his pants on, and can’t wait to get to skul.. the horn to the bus is like popping out of the steering wheel because he just keeps pounding down on it.. So wile wer driving along, he even has to frikin scream at the other cars.. Its like they can hear you!! watta idiot!! so wen we do get so skul, i have to make my way up to my room..The thing is my bag is heavy enough, and i still have to carry a book in my hand.. It atleast makes me luk like i actually study..So wen i get to my room, i usually just slam the door on my way in, and put my stuff down..No one luks alive… not even the liveliest soul.. so i have to frikin get out of there, and i go to the bathroom..I gotta luk at my self rite?? Wen i get there, theres no frikin mirror..nicely rite?! so i was there and i usually just luk at my fone just to check if its off or just on vibrate..then i walk back..thats about my whole morning…the rest of it is just sleeping..Then the day just drags on.. only one little thing keeping me alive rite now..Its just the greatest thing.. so nyway.. this afternoon, the subject after lunch, i was just sitting.. not doing anything.. so i stood up cuz it was getting cold, and started walking to the back.. all of a sudden i feel like my brain just turned into ginger ale, and it was leaking out of my ears..then i felt like a car just ran over my chest..then thats wer it started..i could breath properly, my head was gone, i couldnt rili do anything, but fall…I actually didnt fall..it was amazing how i didnt..my habibi made me sit so i was just sitting there trying to breath, and trying to get my head back in place… It was just frikin impossible.. so i rili had to go get help.. i even managed to walk all the way to the clinic place.. they told me to breath into a bag, which surprisingly helps for sum reason, and the lady told me i was just having an anxiety attack.. i frikin thought  was having a heart attack my chest hurt so bad, and she said it was JUST an anxiety attack..so i rested for a bit, then i went back to class..wen i got home or actually just now i started calling up doctors for "professional" help.. but my stupid dad was just like..you take your anxiety attack and get a cure at sum prison place wer they cn electricute you.. wat help!! im frikin dying of stress and thats the greatest thing he could say to me.. psh..i hope he gets karma one day.. so thats probibly all that hapend today.. aside frm the fact that my head is starting to hurt again because of him..so im just gnna go take my stress out on sumthing..